It’s been more than a month since I posted about Changes.
I like the work I’m doing for the small company, but there are some things I need to keep an eye on.
Thanksgiving week I flaked and didn’t do all the work I was supposed to do. It’s not fatal to me, but it meant I had to talk to the owner about a couple of uncomfortable things.
I’ve been running hypomanic – not getting enough sleep. Unfortunately, I’ve only been partially productive.
I’ve been thinking about all the work I did earlier in the year on business and this blog.
Where do I go next?
First, I want to talk about some of that work.
I listened to and watched dozens of “telesummits”.
I downloaded workbooks.
I talked about it.
I started selling
I “invested” in a couple of small things and one big thing. I was able to arrange a payment plan for a big course. And then, two or three weeks into the course, I collapsed and didn’t finish the course, or pay for it (yet).
I joined a couple of communities for support.
I did make some money. Not nearly enough to live on, but enough to show that it was possible for me to make money.
I became overwhelmed, though, not with the actual running the business, but with all the “this is how to run your business” information flooding my inbox.
At some point, they all began to look the same. They were pushing their own products to tell me how to run/set-up my own business.
I became aware that a couple of them were not much further on the road to creating a business than I was. And that’s fine, really, because part of what one needs when seeking help is to see that someone else has done it or is doing it.
But they were all sounding alike.
And one of my favorites. . .
She released a new course.
I quickly realized that it was very similar to her old course, and it still included some stuff lifted directly from another source (she did give credit to that source).
All of these sources started out wanting to help people. And somehow they always ended up convincing each other to help people build businesses.
It got overwhelming and repetitive at the same time.
And I kept getting stuck at defining my purpose and my ideal client.
I don’t know.
I don’t have an “ideal client”.
I want to help people, and I think straddling the lines of logic, spirituality, and mental illness, my experience is unique.
I also watched several people start out with reasonable offerings and watch their prices double, triple or more in a short period of time.
Now, I know why. Once you get popular, your time becomes more valuable. If you’re doing one-on-one coaching or readings or anything else that takes your time, you need to charge enough that you don’t become overwhelmed, taking too much of your time away from family and so on. And one deserves to be compensated for their time. I get that.
But the advice became uniform: give summits/classes. Sell packages. It doesn’t matter if you’ve even actually created the content yet. Sell it first!
I don’t like that. I just don’t.
I get that you don’t want to spend a lot of time creating something no one will buy, but you really want to sell something you haven’t created yet?
So, no, I’ll never do that, and if that’s what it takes to be successful. . . then fuck it, I won’t be successful.
I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to turn this little blog into a full-time job.
And I don’t care.
I like writing the blog. I like giving readings. I want to write a book.
If other people enjoy that, then great, maybe I’ll make a little money here and there.
If not, well, ok then.
Now that I have income coming in from another source, I’m not totally stressed, and can do what I want with this.
So, I’m still here. I’m still struggling balancing my life with the bipolar. I’m still giving readings. I’m still writing, though less than I was.
Part of why this comes up is that Leonie Dawson’s Amazing Life and Biz workbooks and calendars are out. If you’re interested in buying them, I’m an affiliate so buy through that link. 🙂
This may be the last year I buy it – I think I may make my own for next year.