New Routines

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For a long time, my evening routine, such as it was, consisted of coming home exhausted, getting on the computer, and staying on it, even if I wasn’t doing anything at all, until I couldn’t keep my eyes open. At least when I’m working.

And when not working, even less than that. It would be a “good” night if I spent time exercising or cleaning or anything at all, really.

Lately, I find myself turning off the computer, putting on a new age station on Pandora and sitting on the porch as twilight turns to dark.

Sometimes, I simply sit.

Sometimes, I read – right now: You Are Here by Thich Naht Hanh.

Sometimes I write, either in my personal journal or working on The Desire Map or one of my other journaling/goal setting notebooks. A couple of times, I’ve taken my watercolors out there, too.

I think it started with the Mindfulness class I did at the VA Mental Health Clinic. I started meditating in silence, which I think I’ve mentioned was a little new to me. And I began to crave the quiet time.

And then Tuli came along.

She’s so different from Pumpkin.Image

She likes being outside (Pumpkin didn’t like open spaces).  But it’s dangerous around here, so I can’t really let her out to just explore.

As often as possible, I open up the sliding glass door to the porch and let her go out there.

Having the door open somehow makes me want to go out there more.

I’ve spent more time out there in the last month than I probably have in the 6 years I’ve lived here combined.

I keep wondering why I didn’t do this ages ago. It’s pleasant and relaxing. My allergies act up a little, but still, it’s nice.

Next step: work yoga into the routine, either in the mornings or evenings. I need more movement in my daily routines.

Weekly Oracle Reading Dec 30, 2013 – Jan 5, 2014

I’ve seen a lot of other readers do publish weekly readings and people seem to like them.

I find a couple of things odd about it, which is one reason I haven’t started doing it.

Most of these readings are 3-card readings but they are also temporal readings, meaning the three cards are supposed to represent 7 days as the beginning, middle and end of the week. Of course, 7 days don’t really break up evenly like that. Some say Card 1 is for Mon/Tues, Card 2 is for Wed/Thurs and Card 3 is for “the weekend.” I suppose that makes a kind of sense, but sometimes I find more Real Life happens on the weekend, while the week is concentrated on Work Life. So, having only 1 card represent the weekend seems a little light.

However 3-card readings can also lend themselves to other breakdowns, like Body/Mind/Spirit or Health/Work/Relationships (or Family) or other break downs.

I’m probably going to do one of those most weeks.

The other thing I find weird is that to me, readings are intensely personal, so saying that a reading is for everyone. . . strikes me as odd. I know that it’s general energy trends, not specifics, but I still find it weird. I don’t know if I can do that.

So, for now, I’m going to do the reading as if it were for me, and if I can see how it can relate to everyone, I’ll put that in.

I’m also going to ask for feedback. . . if you can see how a card or interpretation can relate to you, let me know!

Now, onto the reading. . . .

I’m using Colette Baron-Reid’s Enchanted Map deck this week.

Body: 

11. Balancing Act – Reversed – 

That makes total sense. Upright the card would indicate that I am in balance, reversed, I am not.

And it’s true. My own physical health has taken a backseat to many other things. I’m not active and I have not been eating well. I’m also having trouble sleeping. It looks as though this may continue.

 But I think I’ve drawn the card to get me to focus on this issue, so I can use it to focus on my health. Interestingly, my eyes are drawn most to the heart-shaped flower petals, which are supposed to represent love and devotion. That being out of whack is something that has been on my mind lately, as well.

Mind: 

53. Listening.

This image of the Elephant is enchanting. The elephant has large ears to hear, and there seems to be music playing, or is that the birds singing? The green is a calming and healing color.

My eyes are drawn to the elephant’s wise and knowing face. He cannot see the birds where they are perched (well, maybe the one on his tusk) but he doesn’t question where the music is coming from, he just knows.

Elephants are symbols of memory, wisdom and good fortune. They always remind me of my great-grandmother. Edith always had elephant statues and on jewelry as symbols of good luck.

It’s funny because after months of being silent on the blog, I’m just starting to write again, finding my voice, and now the guidance is to Listen.

That’s ok, though, because Listening and reflection are already on the schedule for this week. 🙂

And just the last few days, I’ve been realizing that I’ve turned back to using entertainment as distraction. I’ve been watching all these British shows on Hulu, pretty much non-stop (as I discovered a few I had never seen). I enjoy the shows, but I’m using it as a way to avoid going within, to avoid Listening to my higher self or to Spirit.

I suspect it’s because I think I’m not going to like what I hear, so I want to avoid hearing it. But it’s time. It’s time to hear what’s been trying to come through.

Spirit: 

25. Metamorphosis Reversed – 

The butterfly on the chrysalis is an obvious symbol here. Going through great changes.

But aren’t we always going through changes? If you aren’t changing inside, are you even alive?

Reversed, this is supposed to be a reminder that change can be painful, but worth it.

Funny, I’ve been thinking the worst is behind me. Perhaps not. Perhaps there is more spiritually difficult times on the horizon, and this is a reminder to keep the end-game in mind?

My eyes are drawn this time to the flamingos, with their necks curving into a heart shape.

Ah.

Maybe that does make sense, with some things in my personal life that have been coming to light recently, and ties back into the first card.

Yes, change can be uncomfortable. And it can hurt to give up on long-held dreams.

But, sometimes that change really is necessary.

How about you?

So, do any of these cards speak to you?

Do you see symbolism different than I’ve mentioned?

Does anything I’ve said apply to you this week? (and if you’re reading this long after this week, does it speak to you on the day you’re reading it?)

Not to get too awful salesy, but if you’d like to book a reading with this deck, you can do so here.

Change

Changes happening . . . (pic from Unprofound.com)

Obviously, I’ve been busy with other things for months.

I started falling into depression, which is not uncommon when my financial situation is bad. Things were pretty bad in August and not great in September.

In fact, I was so unfocused that I was unable to do readings people had bought, which doesn’t help matters any.

As far as business. . . . I let things go. I didn’t write, I didn’t work on my research, I didn’t do anything.

I gained back a majority of weight that I lost last year, and inactivity has me feeling stiff and sore.

All that’s negative.

But there’s a couple of things that aren’t so negative.

I spent a lot of energy in the first half of the year working on attracting prosperity and abundance. And in the first half of the year, I did a lot of work on that.

But I didn’t have the energy or focus to do things like actually look for a job or finish my teaching credential. In fact, I was having panic attacks when I tried to.

And then, in June, my old boss called and offered me some contract work, with a strong implication of more to come and a possible job. At the time, I thought I was going to keep teaching, so turned down the implied job.

When the school year started, I still didn’t make any real moves towards a teaching job. I let my sub cert expire. I was tired and didn’t even really want to tutor this year. I decided to not accept new tutoring clients, even though I really needed the money.

I didn’t advertise. I didn’t hustle. I didn’t respond to leads from Thumbtack.

Then I got an email from a client from two years ago – who wanted 2x/week, with a prepaid package. Then I got a call from a client from over 4 years ago, who wants one time a week, but also a prepaid package. Those checks helped me get through September.

Then the boss at the contract job gave me a major project and essentially said to work as much as I could on it. After a couple of more conversations with the boss, it was obvious that she wouldn’t mind having me on full time.

When I was an employee at this company, one of the things I really liked about the owner was that she had a history of figuring out people’s skills and essentially creating positions for them, using their strengths. Now that the company is doing better and expanding, she has some ideas about how I can help the company. I’m going to keep contracting so I can be flexible, but work full time, and have expanded duties.

I’m going to take the time that I’m working there to get back into a technical field, including teaching myself some database stuff. This is a whole new direction for me, and I’m excited about it (tired, but excited).

Would these things have happened if I hadn’t done all that prosperity work when I had the energy to? I don’t know, but maybe it helped. 🙂